Worried and Scared

I'm worried and I'm sad.
I'm scared and I'm mad.

Do this again?
I don't think I can.

I don't want this affliction.
I don't want this abomination.

Lord, I want to be used by you.
I know your laborers are few.

But does it have to be so hard?
Do I have to have a broken heart?

I don't want to be complacent.
When you said go, I went.

I don't expect life to be easy.
But this makes me wish to be done with this journey.

I love you too much to say no,
And I know through this I will grow.

So Lord, even though I don't like this test,
It's in your arms I will rest.

And for those times I am too weak,
I know you will carry me.

I'll be safe from all harm
As I rest in the shelter of your arms.